September 7, 2017

Introduction – The Miracle in the Madness


Murder…or Miracle?

Happiness seems to be something that we all seek, yet so few of us find.  Why?  Is being happy, joyous, and content regardless of the circumstances in our lives an achievable goal?

The answer to this appears to be yes, but most people never experience any real lasting happiness.  If you ask them, they will likely be able to provide a list of reasons why they are unhappy, none of which include the root cause.  The primary cause of unhappiness and misery is wishing that the past would be different, while at the same time, placing one’s happiness in the future.

Paradoxically, it is the darkest moments of our life experiences that can be used to test, prove, and experience Spiritual Truth.    Every so-called difficulty, tragedy, or apparent setback in our lives can be used as a springboard to a new-found freedom and happiness.  Through the process of letting go, what appears to be a liability becomes an asset, and leads to the discovery of Spiritual Truth.  When properly understood, and processed, pain becomes the touchstone of spiritual growth.  Every difficulty contains a treasure, and is a doorway to inner peace.  This is not fantasy, but Truth that can be experienced at a deeply personal level by taking a few simple steps.

For me, I found a miracle in the madness of the most unlikely of trials. My Dad murdered 4 people in 3 different incidents over a 17-month period in the late 1980’s and told me some of the details of the crimes, including describing exactly how he killed two of the victims.  He then used me to help him destroy evidence to keep me from going to police when he sensed that I might ‘betray’ him and turn him in.

For years I kept this experience a secret, and did not speak of it.  Some say time heals all wounds, but this is an illusion at best, and simply not true.  In reality, time does not create distance from our past, it only distorts and intensifies the pain from it.  The unresolved issues and grievances from our past become infected wounds hidden within us that warp our perception, cause immense suffering, and block us from experiencing peace and love.

These experiences often cause unnecessary and immeasurable pain and suffering, both emotional, and physical.  For me it resulted in paralyzing migraine headaches, chronic back pain, sleep apnea, irritable bowel syndrome, recurring nightmares, depression, and an addiction to pain medication.

All of these ailments, I discovered, turned out to be the result of unresolved past grievances from childhood events that included being raised by a sociopathic father that spent 24 years on Florida’s death row for murdering four people.  Today, miraculously, through forgiveness, the impossible became possible, and all of these ailments have been healed.

The greatest gift, however, was not the healing itself, but the discovery of the process that leads to healing.  The most surprising lesson from this experience revealed one of the most misunderstood, overlooked, and important lessons in all of spiritual work.  Everything serves a purpose, and nothing happens by accident.

Much of society tells us not to look too closely at our pain and our fears, but to ignore them, move on, and hope that they will magically go disappear.  In essence, without realizing it, we are hoping and praying for a spiritual bypass.  As much as most of us would like to think that holding hands, praying and singing in church is where we will find the long-term peace that we are looking for, it is just not so.

Surprisingly, it is not in spite of our difficulties and suffering that we are able find our freedom, but because of them.  It is a simple willingness to look directly at the madness that will lead us to the answers.  This is the miracle found hidden, waiting in the madness, and forgiveness is literally the invitation that triggers this Divine response.  Miracles are not random events.

The process outlined in this book may be simple, but it is not always easy.  Becoming willing to look directly at our past, and our fears is often met with a great deal of resistance.  Self-searching, confessing one’s shortcomings, humility, and ego deflation are not typically met with excitement!

The rewards, however, are well worth the challenges that may come up along the way.  The result of making forgiveness our primary goal in this life will bring with it a new-found joy, happiness, peace, love, freedom, and yes…even laughter.  Through the process of letting go, we will also discover that our personal journey to finding true happiness can be accelerated when we become willing to laugh at ourselves along the way.

Humor is a Divine gift that helps us forgive ourselves and others, change our perspective, and begin to see life’s perceived tragedies in an entirely different light. Laughing at your story while learning to “let go” can create an entirely new outlook on life.

The primary purpose of this book is to offer an example of personal experience to help reveal exactly how to apply these spiritual principles to our own lives, and the results that follow.  My story is not necessarily intended to convince those who are suffering that miracles of healing are available to all who seek them, but to offer a ‘real life’ example of experiential truth resulting from this process that is extremely difficult to deny.

The hope is to offer a process with forgiveness that is simple, effective, practical, and applicable to everyday life, while being as truthful as possible about the challenges and difficulties that one may face while practicing and seeking spiritual goals.  This is where the humor becomes most helpful, because as the saying goes, “it is easier said than done”.

However, difficult as it may seem at times, it is by far the easier, gentler path.  Humility, we will discover, seems to be the great healer of pain, as misery and failure are transformed into priceless gifts.  The willingness and courage to take a few simple steps is all that is needed to open the door to your own personal experience with miracles, and then you will know.

Seek and You Shall Find… The Miracle in The Madness.